Senseless

I love myself but I hate me

I know it makes no sense

But that’s what I feel

That’s what I’m living

I want to change

But I don’t want to

I’m stuck in a dilemma

And nothing I can do gets me out

The only thing that could get me out

Is myself

But I can’t do it

I feel filled, but empty

I love me, but I hate what I am

I love to do some things, but I hate when I do them

I love what surrounds me

But I don’t fit anywhere

I never lose hope

But I give up easily

I love loneliness, but I hate being alone

I love my family, but I hate our relationship

I love the way they raised me, but I hate what they’ve created

I love my friends, but I hate the way they are

I love to be with them, but I hate what I feel being around them

I love things that I don’t do, but I hate not doing them

I love to watch the world, but I hate to be a part of it

I know there’s an exit, but I don’t know where is it

And I don’t know if I want to find it

But I know that I do

I know who I am, but I don’t know myself

I know what I want, but I don’t want to fight for it

I know exactly how I feel, but I don’t understand it

I know what’s best for me

But I’m letting it go away……….